Flow, not Force.

This year, I've been really working hard at flow. Flow over force. For most of my life, I saw it as a competition (and why wouldn't I when that's how we are all groomed in public school) to earn the best grades, to make the best test scores, to write the most stellar resume and carefully crafted cover letters too. To do the most work and wear it as some sort of twisted badge of martyrdom. Compete, compete, compete. This year, has been a year of lettering go (my year is from birthday to birthday, not Jan-Dec) ~ I've let go of worry about my children. This is a HUGE one and as a result, I've never had better communication with them, because worry from me translated to judgement and disapproval for them. I let go of many dysfunctional relationships, one of which was with my disabled father who (unknowingly) unfairly put a lot of downward pressure on me since I was a teenager.~ R.I.P. Epic Larry. I let go of a 15 year relationship with a company that taught me a lot but just proved to be a mismatch as time evolved. I've let go of titles that were once considered important and I realize now this was just more unnecessary pressure I placed on myself. I'm still working hard, but it's a different kind of work. I'm working hard at the things that bring me joy, bliss and a true sense of giving. The work is fun and therefore it's healing because I'm doing it for all the right reasons. Flow over force. Row to the calm center. Lay down your oars. Breathe. Look around, what is naturally flowing to you? Take that path. Grab that branch and let the breeze guide you to what's next.